It is 9:30 AM. This about the earliest I have sat down in weeks to work on my book.
Last night, I had the delight of seeing two of my favorite Pure Romance girls, Laura and Jess.
They are both doing really well with their businesses and I am so proud of them both. I didn’t realize until then how much I missed them and the excitement and rewards of the business. People can knock direct sales all they want but there are few other jobs in the world that give you such easy and immediate positive feedback and rewards. It runs on the fuel of “You are awesome”, something many people will work a lifetime and never hear from a boss or coworker.
My Mid-Life Crisis Breakthrough
I stepped back from by business last year for a number of reasons, chief among them was a growing midlife crisis culminating in my best friend’s cancer diagnosis. I loved so much of my Pure Romance business but I had trouble making room for almost anything else. When you are approaching 40 and realize that death can come for anyone at any time, you start to think about what you really want to be doing with your life – what you SHOULD be doing with your life.
So, I’ve stopped pushing my business to focus on my family, my painting and my great unfinished novel. My world had been a meandering path littered with neglected projects. This summer I finally finished and delivered a painting I started in 15 years ago. It felt great. Time has slowed and taken on a rhythm that it was missing for the past few years. I feel more aware and more peaceful.
Last night though, I remembered what it was like to have everyone know how you are doing at your work and think you are awesome, what it was like to get rewards and promotions and titles just for doing what you love. I wish all of life was like that. It’s so easy to get addicted to the kind of feedback. No one gives me a cash bonus for writing 5000 words or washing 5000 dishes in a month. The wait for notoriety when you are making art takes a long time if it ever comes at all.
Life is about the Journey
The thing I keep reminding myself is that life isn’t just about the end result. It’s about the journey. You need to enjoy and bless the road you are on. Writing and raising kids is HARD and takes a really, really long time (hopefully, the book doesn’t take as long as the kids). Focus on the small moments of beauty, the wonderful, frustrating, ridiculous process of getting there. Step by step, rail by rail, bird by bird, you build something. Something meaningful.